Monthly Archives: July 2008

The journaling has severely suffered in the past couple of weeks. Just so much to say, and so much going on. Last week I was busily shopping for a car. Any project like that that I undertake is almost paralyzing to me. I am so easily overwhelmed. So everything else comes to a screeching halt while I alternate between working feverishly on the project and avoiding it, and all other projects, altogether. But ultimately I succeeded in buying a car. Which marks the end of an long and depressing era of transportation deficiencies for William and I.

This week, in celebration of a new car, we’re on the road. In fact, I’m blogging today from New Mexico. Here are some memories of the trip so far:
–Leaving before sunrise on Tuesday. I got up at 4 because, of course, I hadn’t packed yet. I made biscuits and mixed up pancake batter to take on the trip. We left about an hour later than we meant to, but we still left before the sun came up which was the ultimate goal.
–Being silly in the car. Taking pictures of everything, each other, road signs and nothing.
–Finding the fort at Fort Stockton. My peach exploded all over my shirt. We had a yummy lunch and explored the guard house before we found the sign that said there was an admission fee to be paid at the visitor center. We decided the fort wasn’t cool enough to pay for.
–The big road runner in Fort Stockton.
–The “presiding atlas”.
–Crystal reading a book about horses to us, and saying the baby horse bleated for its mom–”baaaa, wait, no, how would it sound?”
–Windmills or turbines. You decide.
–Singing Les Mis in the car with Crystal while Stacey closed her eyes and went to her happy place.
–Taking pictures at mile 666 and mile 1008 on the odometer. I dozed off and Crystal passed 1,000. Oh well. Just adds to the story.
–Stopping in Juncture, TX, in one of the cleanest gas stations I’ve ever seen. I impulsively took a picture of Crystal’s feet in the bathroom stall, and it became a road trip tradition. We have pictures of her feet in every significant bathroom on our trip.
–The poverty and beauty of west Texas and south New Mexico.
–Vistas that go on for miles and miles all around you, with that feeling of being under a bowl of blue.
–Using my new aux cord to listen to Crystal’s and Stacey’s iPods.
–White Sands. Wow. The boys were so excited. They wanted to get out right away, but Crystal made us wait until we got back in a ways where there was parking and so much white sand. The boys ran around and had a great time, and the girls took lots of pictures.
–The scenic drive through Lincoln National Forest. Amazing lighting as the sun was setting. So many animals–elk, jackrabbit, deer, fox–and just such unexpected, lush, green beauty after the desert we had just left. We went from acres of sand dunes to towering green trees in about 20 minutes.
–Taking motrin because I had such a head/ear/neck ache.
–Arriving late in Carlsbad to find no key or registration information waiting for us. I called the emergency number and the nice man came out and gave us a key for a cabin.
–Finding out that the reason they weren’t ready for us was we were a year early. I’d accidentally made the reservation for 2009 somehow?
–Getting upgraded to the brand-new, bathroom-included cabin for the same price.
–Eating waffles without plates.
–Flies, flies and more flies. Apparently all the flies vacation in New Mexico too.
–Carlsbad Caverns. Cool. Once again the boys were so excited. They really wanted to stop and look at everything and the flashlight was the accessory of choice. The bottomless pit was nothing like I remember as a kid. It was weird. If there hadn’t been a sign, I wouldn’t have recognized it.
–Driving down Dark Canyon Road (after finding it with the help of the construction worker) with thunderstorms all around us and signs every half-mile or so saying to watch for water, and cattle grazing free–no fences to keep them off the road.
–A rattlesnake in the road. A big one. We did a u-turn so everyone could see it, and Stacey and Crystal got out!! and took pictures. Which made the boys think they should get out. Uh…no. Crazy people.
–Sitting Bull Falls. So neat. But we didn’t get to spend much time there at all. Definitely something to come back to–and bring water shoes next time. The rocks under the water were so slippery. It was painstaking to move anywhere without falling. The water was so clear and cold and just lovely. Although it rained on us the entire drive over, it cleared off when we got there to swim. Our whole trip has been blessed in just such details as that.
–A fire! A real honest to goodness campfire, with hobo dinners cooked on it (yum!) even though it was raining. The fire outlasted the rain and we were able to eat outside and then make s’mores. I don’t actually like the way s’mores taste, but I like toasting things on the fire.
–Talking, looking at pictures, and watching YouTube videos by the fire on Stacey’s mac.
–Hearing the boys in the cabin laughing at Ratatouille, which was playing on my mac.

We’ve packed a lot of fun and adventure into just two days so far. And today is the going home day. I’m kind of sorry to see it end, but on the other hand, this trip has been so perfect, and this really feels like the perfect length as well.

My first, of hopefully many road trips, in my new, road-worthy car.

I’m having a good day, but that turns out to be boring blog-fodder, so I’m trying out this daybook I found at this homeschool blog I read, and she got it from here.

~ Do stop by Peggy’s for all the Daybook links this week. ~
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Outside My Window… cars, cars and more cars. I really hope to live in the country some day.
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I am thinking… about all of the stuff I need to do.
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I am thankful … for family. My brother, et al, took William with them to the zoo today. That was so nice. I got a bunch of work done while they were gone, and William had an awesome time.
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From the kitchen… dirty dishes are taunting me.
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I am wearing… a pink t-shirt and black running shorts.
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I am creating … a journal here to augment my memory. So many of the good moments get harried right out of my overworked brain each day. I want to keep them all.
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I am going … to run a marathon in November! My 8-miler today went so well, it really made the marathon seem like a reality.
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I am reading … Sense and Sensibility and Around the World in 80 days.
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I am hoping … that William figures out the Civilization III installation without me.
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I am hearing … him trying to figure it out, but without much success. He just complained, “It thinks I’m an adult. I’m just a kid!”
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Around the house … other dirty dishes are taunting me. And assorted clutter.
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One of my favorite things … is William’s determination. Civilization is installed. Way to stick with it buddy!
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A Few Plans For The Rest Of The Week: … dishes, laundry, homeschool planning
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Here is a picture thought I am sharing …

no front tooth

He’s growing up so fast.

So…I moved all the Run the World stuff to its own blog because it was taking over this place and making it even more intimidating and overwhelming for me to journal the way I want to. I want to have a record so that I don’t forget things like William’s current fascination with “Glorious Things of Thee Are Spoken.” He’s currently singing it in his room, alternating between belting it out like an opera baritone, and singing it in a falsetto sotto voce. Also the way he just tonight discovered that he can make a set of wheels with Izze caps and Magnetix. I don’t want to forget anything about him ’cause he’s pretty much the coolest kid ever, but I also don’t want to have to wade through my exercise journal anytime I want to walk down memory lane.

William inherits his propensity to be easily overwhelmed from me. In both of our interests I’ve started school back up with a minimalistic approach. It’s so working for both of us. I can’t even explain how glorious our first week back to school was. William is taking the initiative (with the incentive of a half hour of swimming dangling out there in front of him) and he’s not complaining and he’s just…getting it done. I’m not spending 2 hours a day on planning and sorting through teachers’ guides. And since we’re faithfully and consistently doing school, as opposed to unwillingly and haphazardly doing it, we’re getting bunches accomplished. Minus the pressure. And the overwhelmedness. (or whatever)

Decluttering isn’t just for the house. It works for all my routines and in everything I do. Clutter makes me want to curl up in a ball and sleep. Or watch TV. Or read Jane Austen. It overwhelms me. Getting rid of the clutter gives me hope that I can accomplish what needs to be done.

Maybe I shouldn’t be this way. Maybe I’m a weak-minded, weak-willed person. Yeah, I’m pretty sure that’s true. Maybe someday I’ll be stronger. But for now, decluttering works for me.

Then you can maintain your room in 15 minutes a day as opposed to trying to get it tidy in 15 minutes a day.

Does opposed mean opposite?

Yeah. Pretty much.

You know how I knew that?

Because they have the same root?

Yep. O-P-Z.

Sometimes I feel like I can’t keep up. Hmm. Nope, that’s pretty much all the time. I’m a slow runner, I’m a slow reader. I’m slow to get settled into a routine, and slow to recover when the routine is broken. It takes me forever to get caught up when I get behind.

Camp was so much fun–another amazing and wonderful experience. So many highlights. So I hate that the legacy of camp is how behind I am right now. I have seemingly no ability to just jump back into life. But you know what I’m really lacking is not ability, but discipline. So…still have laundry to do. Dishes to do. Work to do. School planning to do. Not super happy with myself right now.

And because all of the important things that need to be done are stacked up and reaching the critical phase, I have decided, in classic procrastinator fashion, that now is the perfect time to fiddle with my blog. I’m moving all the Run the World Travelogue stuff to its own blog so it will no longer dominate what is supposed to be my journal. I’m hoping to actually journal more. I found a really cool template for a day book that I plan to use when I’m not inspired, or depressed as the case may be. Depression and frustration are really good motivators for blogging/journaling. I’m not really depressed, I’m more just tired of climbing the same mountain again and again. Who’s that guy in mythology that has to push the rock up the hill? And then again? And again. That’s what I do. I get my undisciplined butt into gear, into a good routine and schedule, then life happens. Camp. Pentecost. The Feast coming up. And by the time I just barely get back in the groove again, something else is coming up. I feel like I’ve been fighting this same battle to be organized for my whole life and not gaining any ground. And anytime a gain a bit, the rock rolls right over me back to the bottom of the hill and I have to start over.

Sigh. At least I’ve learned to start over sooner rather than later. And that every little good decision, right choice, bit of effort helps. ‘Cause in the end, this is my rock and my hill. It’s what I’ve been given to do, so what can I do but keep trying to get it right?